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[Originally written on Wednesday, December 21 2005 - 0053 hours]

Graduated at last!

Kepada kawan-
kawan yang
dikasihi, terima
kasih segala
dukungan dan doa.
Saya telah
dinyatakan telah
lulus ujian skripsi.
Sekarang tinggal membuat revisi.
Sender:
Arvin
+62818******
Sent:
20-Dec-2005

Phew! I’m officially granted the title of ‘psychology graduate’. My examination went well, and though I had a few bumps here and there, and lots of gaps with my thesis (it’s still incomplete), the reviewers have decided that I’ve done well and earned my psychology degree. Yipee!

Minutes before starting the exam, Sanny came all the way from Kota just to support me and pray for me. I really love her so much.

Went out with Matias later on. He awaited for my results during the exam.

Hmm… afterwards I went swimming at Hotel Sun Lake. Unexpectedly met two of my old high school friends: Andre and Ricky. I was later joined with Monic.

My parents are well pleased, and my heart is so joyful… filled with relief!

Never imagined the feeling of this relief would be so wonderful and relieving!

Here are a few sms I saved:

Hehe glad for ya
bro! Congrats ya
Sender:
Bertram Dominic
+62815*******
Sent:
20-Dec-2005
15:07:17

Waa.. Slamet ya!
Akhirnya lu jd
sarjana jg gmn
rasanya dah lulus?
Btw g skrg lg di
jambi. Nanti kl g
dah plg g ditraktir
mkn2 ya! Hehe..
Sender:
Dian Setiawan
+62816*******
Sent:
16:14:53

it’s a good
news.congrats
yah,GBU cousin :p
btw, gm jg kmrn
udah dterima d
astra :p thx to God
too.
Sender:
Felicia Chandra
+62818******
Sent:
20-Dec-2005
15:12:48

Man… I feel so tired!
Sleepy.

Might be post-test traumatic disorder or something related.

Well… I’m glad I’m through!

It’s been a long while since I last talk with her. Much
longer since I’ve last met her. For years I considered her as a friend. A
confidant, someone I could chat with, share news and interests in music. Then
one day, everything changed. I don’t know if it was becuase of her busy life, her starting
carreer, or because she simply had a boyfriend.

On the last day of March, I invited her to come a youth club
meeting. Not only she declined my invitation, she firmly requested that I
should never, ever contact her again no matter the circumstances. No matter the
circumstances? I was surprised, and an hour later she called me again, just to
make her point clear. The particular reason is that I use to like her (a fact),
and now she has a boyfriend, and I already have a girlfriend, and for some
reason she is very much disturbed by me.

If she was disturbed by me since the beginning of our
friendship, or in the course of it, why did she never indicated it before?

Last November was her birthday, and I sent her a message. It
was a very simple message, sent on November 22:

I remember your birthday was this Monday, so I
just want to give you a happy 24th birthday!

Regards

I was hoping to at least mend some of our friendship.
Instead, I receieved a rather harsh message:

hey,did I called you before not to disturb
or contact me anymore??why didn’t
understand?r u nuts?eh,g dah bilang g
nga suka lo CONTACT GUE!g dah
ngomong baik2 waktu itu,jgn smpe g
ngomong keras.I CAN’t BE BOTHER!

PS;jgn sok inggris

For those who don’t understand Indonesia, I won’t spare the
effort to translate the meaning.

I just feel that I’ve really lost her as a friend.

It’s been a long road, getting from there to here
it’s been a long time, but my time is finally here
and I can see my dreams come alive at night
I will touch the sky - "Faith of the Heart" by Dianne Warren

Finally,
one chapter of my life is about to close. After years of struggle,
writing, editting, more writing and the occasional guidance plus the
frequent delaying, my thesis on A Description of Online Gamers’ Behavior and Motivations has finally been completed.

FINISHED!!!

.
.
.
.

And all that’s left for me is to await my exam trial.
(sigh)

My
exam trial is in next Tuesday, and the day before my thesis advisor
will hold a simulated trial to prepare me and my fellow peers mentally
for the real thing.

Anyway, just to tell: my thesis is finished!  Thank God!